i've been showered with care and concern
and i'm happy

since the performance had been over for some time
there's no more reason for me to be sad abt

i feel ok now

and surprisngly i'm enjoying my carefree life now
kinda sad to have to start counting down for my MC days
=x

for these days
i've no slightest feel or thoughts abt my work
but instead
i do think and want to go back to teach at the tuition center
wondering how my kids have been coping lately..

does that means it is time for me to find something new?
is that what i really like doing and i can take it as a perm job of mine?

ytd went to do my first check-up

quite lucky to get back the same doc who is on duty in the A&E that day

he remembered me as the Dancer patient
who was so drama that day

saw my new xray
and not much process at all
he said usu it will take at least 6 weeks to heal
so i've to be in cast for anor 6 weeks

however
there's side effect for the long-term cast
due to ankle not able to move for that long
i need to undergo pysio therapy after the cast is removed
the thought of pyhsio just makes me feel so handicap...

and after the whole course of therapy
(depending on individual)
the ankle may not be as flexi as it used to be

which means
i'll be having some prob dancing in future
performing strenous movement will be tough
going hiking will experience pain
and can i even roller blade anymore??

never had i thought that the sprain i thought it to be
had turned out to be a fractured
which happened at the wrong time
and haunt my joy off

i was then brought to the bandage room to do my cast
i felr heartaching as i see my feet getting more swollen
since i've last seen it
bruises of blue-black was hiding right beneath my swell
now both sides of my leg swell

i know my mum feels it too

but i must comment that the staff there are friendly and makes you feel at ease
my new cast is light but
is knee-length long and that makes me feels like a soccer player
and my cast has new friend too..

   
thanks to Jamie for the constant snapping once my foot get sees the light

from this incident,
i know there's alot of pple concern abt me
esp my family

i feel sorry
sorry to cause so much trouble to my family

the pain that caused me to wake up in the middle of night
and couldn't get to slp properly due to stiff sleeping position,
resulting terrible backache
and i had to wake my parents up for help

the constant "mum can you help me get this..that..."
the rubbing of my leg
and preparing for my meal...

all the nitty-gritty stuff i received...
really thankful
and guilty at the same time

sometimes i wander how many of my friends really understand me
do they know that certain things really mean so much to me?

the mth of August is the happiest period of my life

my journey to my Dream is getting closer and closer

and able to dance with my peers is so amazing.
peers of the same interest who gets to know one another
from a dance course which neither of us is familiar with...
we practice hard tgt
even if
we have our self-practice session just outside the walkway for consecutive days,
we still enjoy the moment and help one another to make it better

practicing with these bunch of mates is what i long for..

i thank god for giving me this opportunities and i work really hard

but now

the lady luck seems to put on a joke on me
this joke is a costly one

my Dream is like so far away from me now
why it has to be NOW?
why am i the chosen one?

i feel like an angel without wings
and has fallen right down into hell

dream shattered as i'm just a step away

heart sank and broke as i fell into the halo

i'm forced to be left behind
i'm forced to be the chosen one

i force myself to feel OK
i force myself to be detached frm the performance
i force myself to not think nor feel sad abt not able to perform
i force myself to believe that i still can have the 2nd opportunities next yr
when i know that chances are hard to come by

i'm living in a world of fake sunshine now
and when the sun sets
i'll be back to my old self

one which no one can truly understand how i feel 

Highlight #1

is abit late
but this was my happy Saturday
a week ago...

went for family breakfast
its been a looooonnnnng time since we had breakfast tgt

dear Shan came over before we heading to KTV @ Liang Court
her new hairstyle is so Stylo-Milo!

esp when she wear with her new shirt..

my dance-mate and buddy
without her, my dream will nvr fulfill

time to parTy~~!

pple of all ages
come tgt with a common interest

its rare to come by
=)

Highlight #2

i had my long awaited haircut!!

i feel so fresh

yeah!

a haircut can make me happy.
how i wish i can cut it eveyday!
lol...

I can't seem to remember when was the last time I went to work with a smile...